as i rocked my baby

to sleep tonight... i told him of his birth story. i've done this often but tonight it was of special importance, because as i was whispering in his ear, this time one year ago i was starting to have contractions. sweet, soft contractions that would help push my baby out. we were watching the simpsons & then conan obrien, which is kinda funny because they sortof look alike. then the contractions became not so soft & sweet & my mother began to panic, calling all the important players & yelling at them to hurry their hinny's up! he entered this world gracefully at 3:04 am in the comfort of our home. everyone made it in time... everything went as it should.

we are blessed.

our worlds have changed. dramatically. everything is different now. everything. we're still megan & bryan, the same ole, megan & bryan, but now we're finn's parents. and that is an awesome, awesome job. everyday we're learning something new. questioning what we thought we knew. what we want to know. how we want to react to the situations that arise. figuring out the type of parents we want to be...


we were given such a sweet, beautiful little boy. to raise. to giggle with. to dote on & kiss & snuggle with. & to figure out how in the hell we're supposed to discipline a child that makes you laugh as he does whatever it is you don't want him to do.

*I sometimes wake in the early morning
& listen to the soft breathing of my children
& I think to myself, this is one thing I will never regret
& I carry that quiet with me all day long. brian andreas*

my sweet child. you are old enough to know what pain is & you're quite clumsy so you feel it often. you are old enough to know when to laugh or say uh-oh on time with dropping whatever you're holding. you say choo choo when we ask you what sound a train makes. or mooooooo for a cow. or baaaa for a sheep. you point to birds. you can spot a basketball hoop in the yard across the street, while in your high chair, you'll point & say bskball.


when you hear a plane you look up in the sky for it. at night you look for the mooooooooon. if i say 'grab a book & come sit in my lap' you do. & we'll read. you take the time to point at everything in your books & turn the pages. we have to hold your hands down for the first bite at every meal- but once you've tasted it you're fine & for the most part cooperative. you can take the spoon from us & feed yourself. you love holding a whole pear or apple & eat almost the entire thing.

you make me laugh.
you make me feel special.
you make me feel important.
you have made me fall more in love with your father.


you have made my life have meaning & i want to thank you.


it's incredible to think you've been here for exactly 365 days. you've made the past
five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes so very special.

& i love you for it. happy birthday baby. mommy & daddy adore you.